Allow me to introduce myself for mid-2018…

I’m a newly single, late 40-something beginning a whole new life in a crazy, strange world.  I was the type of person who would not rock the boat.  Most of the time, I’m still that same person.  However, I do have boundaries now, that were always there before, but I never enforced.  Here goes:

  1. I will not tolerate hate speech, criticisms that are meant to cut down and not help a person step up, bigotry, judgments of a person’s appearance or sexuality or sexual identity or life practices or… well… judgments, or general meanness.
  2. I’m not religious but I’m open-minded to all beliefs and faiths as long as you avoid #1 above.  Check your words for anything included in #1 before sharing, please.
  3. Kindness and gentleness is more important to me than being right.
  4. If you don’t like something you see on my blog, don’t comment, just move on.  There are plenty of other blogs out there that you’ll enjoy, so go enjoy them.  If you do comment inappropriately, I reserve the right to delete and block you without warning or explanation.
  5. If you don’t like me because of something you see on my blog, don’t comment, just move on.  And please, I invite you to not return.  There are plenty of other people out there that you’ll fit in with, so go be with them, I’ll be okay.

I wrote what’s below in 2014.  Four years later, it is still so much truth.

I am finding how magical authenticity can be.
I wonder if I can truly be authentic in today’s world.
I hear so much hatred and meanness it makes me afraid.
I see the beauty in nature all around me and wish for more.
I want to surround myself with love and light to help buffer the hate and darkness in the world.
I am feeling joy for the first time in decades.

I pretend to be someone I am not so that I do not offend people around me.
I feel alone a lot of the time, though not as much as I used to.
I touch everyone with my heart, whether they know it or not.
I worry that I am wrong and that being wrong will cause me pain in the end.
I cry over Hallmark commercials and dead animals on the road.
I am discovering myself.

I understand friends and family better than they think I do.
I say a lot less than I think and feel.
I dream vividly, in Technicolor and insane connections and plot twists.
I try to remember I’m a good person and to find peace in this chaotic world.
I hope for fulfillment in love, friendship and self.
I am finding how magical authenticity can be.

 

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